I'm sorry I haven't posted for a while. Time sure does get away from you quickly! Things have been hectic, but moving in the right direction . . . personally anyway. My food choices have certainly slipped. Today, as I struggle with a sore throat, it's a regular reminder to me that I have not been drinking enough water - and that I could have been making better food choices recently. I don't think I've had total 'throw away' days from start to finish, but I wouldn't hold any of them up as stellar.
But, that's part of this journey we're on. We fall, we get up. We learn. I am not accepting any of my food choices as an open door to go back to my old habits. I jump back in and make good choices. Speaking of good choices, I'm looking for something to soothe this scratchy throat. Anyone have any good remedies?
Make it a great day.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Two Posts in One Day! Putting it Out there . . .
Kenz issued a challenge for bloggers to be honest about some of their weight loss issues. I've been struggling with being honest with myself for the last couple of weeks, so I'm jumping on this excercise. If you have a blog, please join in and answer, and list your address in the comments so I can follow up with you too! If you don't have a blog, please answer as many of these in comments as you can.
1. What was your highest weight, what do you weigh right now and what is your goal weight?
My highest recorded weight was 269. I have gotten as low as 195 in my most recent journies, but I'm coming back down from 225 right now. I'm somewhere near 210. My FIRST goal weight is 180. If you've been reading my blog a while, you know that I want to give myself enough cushion to not rebound right back up over 200. For some reason, getting near 200 makes me sabotage myself. My overall goal is 140.
2. What is your #1 motivation for losing weight?
My #1 motivation is to lose weight so I will be fit around my children, and be able to enjoy their activities with them. I don't want to be the 'fat mommy' in the group.
3. Have you always been overweight?
Hmm. That's a good question. I was 'told' I was overweight . . . even sent to a 'fat doctor' . . . in high school, when I went from a size 8 to a size 10 (wouldn't you kill for THAT size now?), but looking at pictures, I was very healthy then. I would say I really started taking off in college - so well over 20 years.
4. When you want to give up what inspires you to keep going?
Being accountable to my children. I might make a poor choice for a meal, but I'm determined to not let it become a downward spiral and become my life again.
5. What is the #1 thing you look forward to when you hit your goal weight?
Going to a store and actually wanting to shop for clothes.
6. Do you have support on your weight loss journey?
Absolutely. My husband is very supportive.
7. What is your favorite exercise?
Ugh. I can't say I have one; however, I really do enjoy doing my tapes . . . Yoga Booty Ballet, Zumba, etc. I don't mind the elliptical at the gym, but the classes make me feel more 'womanly'. Odd, I know.
8. What is the most important thing you have learned on your weight loss journey?
I have learned that I have not been honest with myself about what I really eat, I have learned that I do not have good self esteem or body image, and I have learned that I am entirely too hard on myself.
9. What is one thing you have given up that you miss the most?
I gave up that size 10 a long time ago . . . I miss that the most. :-) Regarding food, I have not given anything up, and I intend to keep it that way. My previous attempts have always failed because I get obsessed with what I 'can't' have. I'm not doing that to myself again.
10. What is your strategy for losing weight
My strategy is to stay on track, take it one day at a time, and try to stay accountable to myself. I am worth this. I am worth being healthy.
1. What was your highest weight, what do you weigh right now and what is your goal weight?
My highest recorded weight was 269. I have gotten as low as 195 in my most recent journies, but I'm coming back down from 225 right now. I'm somewhere near 210. My FIRST goal weight is 180. If you've been reading my blog a while, you know that I want to give myself enough cushion to not rebound right back up over 200. For some reason, getting near 200 makes me sabotage myself. My overall goal is 140.
2. What is your #1 motivation for losing weight?
My #1 motivation is to lose weight so I will be fit around my children, and be able to enjoy their activities with them. I don't want to be the 'fat mommy' in the group.
3. Have you always been overweight?
Hmm. That's a good question. I was 'told' I was overweight . . . even sent to a 'fat doctor' . . . in high school, when I went from a size 8 to a size 10 (wouldn't you kill for THAT size now?), but looking at pictures, I was very healthy then. I would say I really started taking off in college - so well over 20 years.
4. When you want to give up what inspires you to keep going?
Being accountable to my children. I might make a poor choice for a meal, but I'm determined to not let it become a downward spiral and become my life again.
5. What is the #1 thing you look forward to when you hit your goal weight?
Going to a store and actually wanting to shop for clothes.
6. Do you have support on your weight loss journey?
Absolutely. My husband is very supportive.
7. What is your favorite exercise?
Ugh. I can't say I have one; however, I really do enjoy doing my tapes . . . Yoga Booty Ballet, Zumba, etc. I don't mind the elliptical at the gym, but the classes make me feel more 'womanly'. Odd, I know.
8. What is the most important thing you have learned on your weight loss journey?
I have learned that I have not been honest with myself about what I really eat, I have learned that I do not have good self esteem or body image, and I have learned that I am entirely too hard on myself.
9. What is one thing you have given up that you miss the most?
I gave up that size 10 a long time ago . . . I miss that the most. :-) Regarding food, I have not given anything up, and I intend to keep it that way. My previous attempts have always failed because I get obsessed with what I 'can't' have. I'm not doing that to myself again.
10. What is your strategy for losing weight
My strategy is to stay on track, take it one day at a time, and try to stay accountable to myself. I am worth this. I am worth being healthy.
Stress, Stress, Stress!
I know it's natural to feel stressed at some times, but lately I've had an extra large dose. I won't pretend to have made great choices every day; however, I have made good choices most days - which a huge step in the right direction. The scale is not jumping down (it might be the same, or a pound up) over the last three weeks, but at this point I'm just trying to maintain an equilibrium.
This is the point where I argue with myself. I know that if I exercised more, it would raise endorphins, help me feel stronger, and give me motivation to push through this. And then I argue, in a very grown up voice, 'But I don't wanna! (whine)'
How do you push yourself to get out there when you don't want to, to find time when there is none, to put yourself on the top of a 25 page list??? If anyone has tips for what has worked for you, I'm game.
Make it a great day.
This is the point where I argue with myself. I know that if I exercised more, it would raise endorphins, help me feel stronger, and give me motivation to push through this. And then I argue, in a very grown up voice, 'But I don't wanna! (whine)'
How do you push yourself to get out there when you don't want to, to find time when there is none, to put yourself on the top of a 25 page list??? If anyone has tips for what has worked for you, I'm game.
Make it a great day.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Happy Girl
Turns out that there is a scientific reason that I might appear more happy than some other people. According to an article by AOL (not the bastion of scholarly research, admittedly), there are key roadblocks to your happiness. The roadblocks are Expecting the worst all the time, Passing the buck, Thinking life should be perfect, Not thinking of others, and Expecting life to be fair. Lucky for me, I don't really have those qualities. I am an overall happy or cheerful person most of the time.
Don't get me wrong - I can be a grump! But my overall outlook on life, and how I treat people, is pretty rosy. I wouldn't change even the bad things I've been through, as they've made me a very strong woman.
So, I am overall pretty happy . . . I just want to be healthier. Does being happy help you get healthier? I don't think Santa would say so (should I say so, so , so?). Today it's ok though. I'll use my rosy outlook to know that I'm on the right road, as are you, friends. We'll do it together!
Make it a great day.
Don't get me wrong - I can be a grump! But my overall outlook on life, and how I treat people, is pretty rosy. I wouldn't change even the bad things I've been through, as they've made me a very strong woman.
So, I am overall pretty happy . . . I just want to be healthier. Does being happy help you get healthier? I don't think Santa would say so (should I say so, so , so?). Today it's ok though. I'll use my rosy outlook to know that I'm on the right road, as are you, friends. We'll do it together!
Make it a great day.
Monday, September 27, 2010
The not-much-to-say post
Ever have one of those days where you feel like saying something, but know you really have nothing to say? That's where I am today. I had a fantastic weekend . . . too good, food wise. My mother took me to a lovely French restaurant last night to celebrate my birthday (translation . . . French = calories). We also went to a Nebraska watch party and I overdid on the yummo nibbles. So, what am I to do with my week this week?
I'm not looking back. As I have done with this new journey in the past . . . I will not beat myself up, even if the scale goes up a smidge this week. I begin with each meal and move forward. I make good choices. I deserve good choices.
So, how about you? How was your weekend, and your choices? If you're still on your journey with me, I always love to hear from you. Email me or post a comment below.
Make it a great day.
I'm not looking back. As I have done with this new journey in the past . . . I will not beat myself up, even if the scale goes up a smidge this week. I begin with each meal and move forward. I make good choices. I deserve good choices.
So, how about you? How was your weekend, and your choices? If you're still on your journey with me, I always love to hear from you. Email me or post a comment below.
Make it a great day.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Birthday Wishes
So, yesterday was my birthday. Don't worry, you didn't have to get me anything (family excluded). ;-) If you're wondering, I turned 39 for the first time. Time will tell if I decide to turn 39 again next year, or if I jump into my 5th decade (man, that sounds a LOT worse than 40s!) with my husband. ;-)
So, on my birthday, I like to reflect on my blessings (which are numerous) and my wishes (much less numerous - the way it should be). I have so much more than I could have ever dreamed. Yes, I want future financial security for my family. Yes, I want to be a better person . . . but, really, my wish is to be healthier. I don't mean just because I exercise (4-letter word). I mean, I want to be healthier all over. I want to choose healthier food consistently because I want to, not because I have to. I want to want to exercise. That is my wish. To be healthier. To want to be healthier.
What are some of your birthday rituals or wishes? Do they depend on others to make them come true, or just you? Interested in your thoughts.
Make it a great day.
So, on my birthday, I like to reflect on my blessings (which are numerous) and my wishes (much less numerous - the way it should be). I have so much more than I could have ever dreamed. Yes, I want future financial security for my family. Yes, I want to be a better person . . . but, really, my wish is to be healthier. I don't mean just because I exercise (4-letter word). I mean, I want to be healthier all over. I want to choose healthier food consistently because I want to, not because I have to. I want to want to exercise. That is my wish. To be healthier. To want to be healthier.
What are some of your birthday rituals or wishes? Do they depend on others to make them come true, or just you? Interested in your thoughts.
Make it a great day.
Monday, September 20, 2010
FMM - Frends-Making-Monday
Hosted by blogger Kenz, here are my Monday questions to help you get to know me better! If you would like to participate, please leave the address of your blog in the comments, and I'll check yours out as well.
1) If you could magically change one thing about your body, what would it be? To shrink back to my natural hour-glass shape rather than my current several-days shape.
2) What is your best physical feature? My lips. Accentuate what you have!
3) Do you weigh yourself daily? Hourly? Weekly? Bi-weekly? Never? Weekly for sure. Sometimes more often. It just depends on how 'off' or 'on' I feel that week.
4) Do you workout regularly? If so, how does if affect you from day to day? Ugh. No. My biggest nemesis! I do not work out regularly at all. I know that when I work out I feel so awesome! I just let life and schedules give me an excuse to ignore it.
5) What is the healthiest thing you do for yourself on a regular basis? I drink lots of water (oops - saying that as I realized I forgot my big water bottle today!), I eat whole grains and organic whenever possible, and I really don't indulge in junk foods that often. (By junk foods, I mean candy or fried food. I do still drink diet soda, and I have my skinny cow ice cream.)
6) If you could look like a celebrity, who would you choose to look like? With or without makeup? ;-) I really don't look at celebrities and think of them in any sort of 'human' way. I've always been ok with who I am, although I would like less of who I am sometimes.
7) What do you do to make yourself feel pretty/handsome? I line my lips . . . take time with my mascara . . . I know it should be something exciting like pampering myself, doing a mani/pedi, etc. Ok, I like those too, but I was thinking more on a daily basis.
8) What are you most attracted to in the opposite sex? Brains!!! I love a man who challenges me to think about the world in new ways, and who is witty and wise. I am blessed to say that I have that in my wonderful husband, who is a darned handsome catch to boot!!!
9) Have you ever avoided situations because you didn't want people to see your body shape? Hello! I live in Florida!!! Beach/swimming avoidance is my middle name. Yes, avoid always. Other than also being one of the whitest people on the planet, body shape hasn't helped. Buying close is also not a favorite, but better now that I'm not in plus sizes anymore.
10) How do you feel about your overall appearance? I think I have a cheerful disposition, which conveys to a pretty cheerful appearance. I'm always self-conscious about my shape, clothes, and weight, but have tried to tell myself that others aren't evaluating me as much as I am. You're not, right? ;-)
Whether or not you have a blog, I'm interested in your answers! Please respond to the same 10 questions in your blog or in the comments. Let's get to know each other!
Make it a great day.
1) If you could magically change one thing about your body, what would it be? To shrink back to my natural hour-glass shape rather than my current several-days shape.
2) What is your best physical feature? My lips. Accentuate what you have!
3) Do you weigh yourself daily? Hourly? Weekly? Bi-weekly? Never? Weekly for sure. Sometimes more often. It just depends on how 'off' or 'on' I feel that week.
4) Do you workout regularly? If so, how does if affect you from day to day? Ugh. No. My biggest nemesis! I do not work out regularly at all. I know that when I work out I feel so awesome! I just let life and schedules give me an excuse to ignore it.
5) What is the healthiest thing you do for yourself on a regular basis? I drink lots of water (oops - saying that as I realized I forgot my big water bottle today!), I eat whole grains and organic whenever possible, and I really don't indulge in junk foods that often. (By junk foods, I mean candy or fried food. I do still drink diet soda, and I have my skinny cow ice cream.)
6) If you could look like a celebrity, who would you choose to look like? With or without makeup? ;-) I really don't look at celebrities and think of them in any sort of 'human' way. I've always been ok with who I am, although I would like less of who I am sometimes.
7) What do you do to make yourself feel pretty/handsome? I line my lips . . . take time with my mascara . . . I know it should be something exciting like pampering myself, doing a mani/pedi, etc. Ok, I like those too, but I was thinking more on a daily basis.
8) What are you most attracted to in the opposite sex? Brains!!! I love a man who challenges me to think about the world in new ways, and who is witty and wise. I am blessed to say that I have that in my wonderful husband, who is a darned handsome catch to boot!!!
9) Have you ever avoided situations because you didn't want people to see your body shape? Hello! I live in Florida!!! Beach/swimming avoidance is my middle name. Yes, avoid always. Other than also being one of the whitest people on the planet, body shape hasn't helped. Buying close is also not a favorite, but better now that I'm not in plus sizes anymore.
10) How do you feel about your overall appearance? I think I have a cheerful disposition, which conveys to a pretty cheerful appearance. I'm always self-conscious about my shape, clothes, and weight, but have tried to tell myself that others aren't evaluating me as much as I am. You're not, right? ;-)
Whether or not you have a blog, I'm interested in your answers! Please respond to the same 10 questions in your blog or in the comments. Let's get to know each other!
Make it a great day.
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