Thursday, October 7, 2010

Two Posts in One Day! Putting it Out there . . .

Kenz issued a challenge for bloggers to be honest about some of their weight loss issues.  I've been struggling with being honest with myself for the last couple of weeks, so I'm jumping on this excercise.  If you have a blog, please join in and answer, and list your address in the comments so I can follow up with you too!  If you don't have a blog, please answer as many of these in comments as you can.

1. What was your highest weight, what do you weigh right now and what is your goal weight?

My highest recorded weight was 269.  I have gotten as low as 195 in my most recent journies, but I'm coming back down from 225 right now.  I'm somewhere near 210.  My FIRST goal weight is 180.  If you've been reading my blog a while, you know that I want to give myself enough cushion to not rebound right back up over 200.  For some reason, getting near 200 makes me sabotage myself.  My overall goal is 140.

2. What is your #1 motivation for losing weight?
My #1 motivation is to lose weight so I will be fit around my children, and be able to enjoy their activities with them.  I don't want to be the 'fat mommy' in the group.
3. Have you always been overweight?
Hmm.  That's a good question.  I was 'told' I was overweight . . . even sent to a 'fat doctor' . . . in high school, when I went from a size 8 to a size 10 (wouldn't you kill for THAT size now?), but looking at pictures, I was very healthy then.  I would say I really started taking off in college - so well over 20 years.

4. When you want to give up what inspires you to keep going?
Being accountable to my children.  I might make a poor choice for a meal, but I'm determined to not let it become a downward spiral and become my life again.

5. What is the #1 thing you look forward to when you hit your goal weight?
Going to a store and actually wanting to shop for clothes.

6. Do you have support on your weight loss journey?
Absolutely.  My husband is very supportive.

7. What is your favorite exercise?
Ugh.  I can't say I have one; however, I really do enjoy doing my tapes . . . Yoga Booty Ballet, Zumba, etc.  I don't mind the elliptical at the gym, but the classes make me feel more 'womanly'.  Odd, I know.
8. What is the most important thing you have learned on your weight loss journey?
I have learned that I have not been honest with myself about what I really eat, I have learned that I do not have good self esteem or body image, and I have learned that I am entirely too hard on myself.

9. What is one thing you have given up that you miss the most?
I gave up that size 10 a long time ago . . . I miss that the most.  :-)  Regarding food, I have not given anything up, and I intend to keep it that way.  My previous attempts have always failed because I get obsessed with what I 'can't' have.  I'm not doing that to myself again.
10. What is your strategy for losing weight
My strategy is to stay on track, take it one day at a time, and try to stay accountable to myself.  I am worth this.  I am worth being healthy.

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